”成り上がり”がダサいと言われても私は何も持たずに生まれてきて「自分で努力するか」or「一生普通でいるか」の二択しかなかった。だから私は自分で努力することを選んだんだ。でも、この人生を恥じたことはないし、こんな人生だからこそ伝えられることがあると思ってる。
ココシャネルのこの言葉が一番好き。”翼を持たずに生まれてきたのなら、翼をはやすためにどんな障害も乗り越えなさい”何度も励まされたし、何度も突き動かされたお守りのような言葉なの。
今何もないなら自分でなんとかするしかないじゃない？ただの女の子みたいに泣いて逃げるなんてできなくて、どこまでも諦めの悪い私でいたい。
そして遠く先に出会う”何も持たずに生まれてきた人たち”に「翼は必ずはえてくるよ」って伝えられたらいいなと思う。私は誰に何と言われても、自分が美しいと思う生き方を貫くだけだね。
I was born without wings.
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Even if it was said that “upstart” was not good, I was born without anything and had only two choices: “Make an effort myself” or “Stay normal for the rest of my life”. That’s why I chose to make an effort myself. However, I’ve never been ashamed of this life, and I think that there is something I can convey because of this life.
I like the quote by Coco Chanel the most. “If you were born without wings, do nothing to prevent them from growing.” It’s a talisman-like word that has been encouraged and pushed me many times.
If you don’t have anything now, you have to do something for yourself, right? I can’t cry and run away like just a girl, and I want to be the one who never gives up.
I think it would be great that I could say to the people I will meet in the distance future who were born without anything, “Your wings will surely grow.” No matter what anyone says, I’m just going to live my life the way I think it’s beautiful.
